Author Archives: Nadine
On Memory
#202: For the fact is that neuroscientists who study memory remain unclear on the question of whether each time we remember something we are accessing a stable “memory fragment”—often called a “trace” or an “engram”—or whether each time we remember something we are literally creating a new “trace” to house the thought. And since no one has yet been able to discern the material of these traces, nor to locate them in the brain, how one thinks of them remains mostly a matter of metaphor: they could be “scribbles,” “holograms,” or “imprints”; they could live in “spirals,” “rooms,” or “storage units.” Personally, when I imagine my mind in the act of remembering, I see Mickey Mouse in Fantasia, roving about in a milky, navy-blue galaxy shot through with twinkling cartoon stars.
– Maggie Nelson, from ‘Bluets’
Red Hand File (106)
Going In
Some Favourites
Rustin Man – Drift Code
Little Simz – GREY Area
Kate Tempest – Book of Lessons & Traps
Michael Kiwanuka – Kiwanuka
Damien Jurado – In the Shape of A Storm
Sault – 7
Lankum – The Livelong Day
Vanishing Twin – The Age of Immunology
Michael Nau – Less Ready to Go
Lhasa in Reykjavik
Telemachus
Like any good son, I pull my father out
of the water, drag him by his hair
through white sand, his knuckles carving a trail
the waves rush in to erase. Because the city
beyond the shore is no longer
where we left it. Because the bombed
cathedral is now a cathedral
of trees. I kneel beside him to show how far
I might sink. Do you know who I am,
Ba? But the answer never comes. The answer
is the bullet hole in his back, brimming
with seawater. He is so still I think
he could be anyone’s father, found
the way a green bottle might appear
at a boy’s feet containing a year
he has never touched. I touch
his ears. No use. I turn him
over. To face it. The cathedral
in his sea-black eyes. The face
not mine – but one I will wear
to kiss all my lovers good-night:
the way I seal my father’s lips
with my own & begin
the faithful work of drowning.
– Ocean Vuong, from ‘Night Sky with Exit Wounds’
Data
Hold Your Own
Mixtapes
– Lavinia Greenlaw, The Importance of Music to Girls